Best Friend drama

I know this post would never end this problem, but I just want to make this clear to people.

Most of you would know, my best friend is a guy.

Because he’s a guy, people think the Hollywood magic would happen; ‘’Oh they’re going to couple for sure!’’. And when it is denied, people think; ‘’Ok, he likes her. That’s definitely why he’s so close to her’’.

Fine. People tend to stereotype that way. That’s normal.

But what’s not normal is how matters get out of hand.

Let me just list it out for all you ignorant idiots.

1)      Because he’s malay, certain people disapprove of our bond. For instance, my grandpa. He thinks it’s unsightly I am so close to a guy, especially a malay. Then there’s my dad, not disapproving about us, but in general, brings him into any complaints he has over political issues.

2)      Nowadays when I do date or hope to date, the guys would start to point fingers at him, insisting he likes me and how cowardly he is to not man up about his ‘true’ feelings. Then they start insulting him, hating him, and just treat him like a convict.

3)      This hacker who apparently liked me tried to sabotage his internet life because the hacker believes that he is a threat to my life, therefore trying to erase him from being my best friend. Even though it was proven that my best friend is here to help, and not cause whatever stupid nonsense the hacker believed, he was still hacked so that the hacker can prove he likes me.

So here’s my defence for what I believe in.

1)      So what if he is not Chinese?!?? At least he’s there to give me support, be the shoulder to cry on when everyone in my family is busy cursing at each other!!

2)      So what IF he does like me? Why does that concern you bastards?! IF he does, shouldn’t I be worried, NOT you??? Oh, so you’re trying to ‘warn’ me?? You think I’ve never heard of this nonsense since we became friends??? Even if it’s true, he KNOWS I would never like him that way, and we would still be friends after he confessed. And I’m not saying this is true, but that would happen if it is.

3)      He got hacked, it’s my entire fault, and yet he doesn’t blame me for it. His conversations were stalked, small and stupid hints of him liking me were emailed to me by the hacker, and so many silly things happened just cause he is my best friend.

4)      Only a month or so ago, my ‘best friend’ IMed me saying he likes me, telling how he never said it before because he was scared. He even told my other friend. The next day when I tried to confirm the truth, when he didn’t pick up my call, I called my other friend to get her to contact him instead. When he finally answered my call, he confirmed it was the HACKER, not him. But the damage was done. My other friend was so in believe with what the liar said, she screamed at my best friend for denying the truth. And ever since then, she has been believing he actually DOES like me.

Just so you know…

It hurts;

·         That people accuse you as if you’re blind about the situation.

·         When other guys you considered dating accuse your best friend without knowing the truth.

·         When people are so stubborn they don’t think the whole situation thoroughly.

·         When one of your good friends whom you trust would know the truth, is siding with the disbelievers.

·         That whenever this happens, without fail my best friend would say he is sorry when he is not the one at wrong.

If people started rumours about your best friend, how would YOU feel? What if people talked lies about your family, won’t YOU feel like your heart is being ripped out??

When I am in a foul mood, I would snap at him at treat him unfairly.

When I am crying, I would tell him about events in painstakingly full detail.

When I am under stress, I would lose my patience over him

When I am lazy, I ignore him.

And yet here he is, still taking in whatever shyte I give him.

All these traits, can be found within a good friend. Be it guy or girl.

I chose to be friends with a guy, and I picked the right choice.

And that’s why; you people have no rights to say anything about this. NO rights at all.

If you’re still so blind as to think I’m being blind, then YOU are the blind one because you have never been in my shoes. So shut the hell up.

Oh, and I would never shed a tear for a guy. No guy is worth a girl’s tears unless they are happy tears. As for all the tears I’ve shed in this ‘unnecessary’ battle of friendship for 2.5 years, they are to pity the blind ass*****.

I'm such a failure :(

I’m such a lazy person! I left my blog dead.. Sowee bloggie! :(

Hols has started! So far I’ve managed to lose my mp3, recover it in my washing machine, and took my driving test.

I’m not gonna lie, imma gonna go back to Coll to use the library. Hey! I know you guys are going to say I’m such a nerd, but I just wanna prepare myself for next sem (which is supposed to be harder).

If I almost died in the last sem, imagine the next one… Whoooo dead.

 

Sooooo… Driving. I FAILED. Stupid right. I know. So far there are a few people who called me noob and such, thinking it’s funny. Well, I know it’s noobish and all, but I just don’t get why you people can’t be a lil more sympathetic.

 

Imagine.

Exam can be taken ONLY on Mondays.

 

The earliest date that’s free is 23 MAY.

 

My coll starts on the 9th of May.

 

So that means I need to skip class, right?

 

What if, my class is an important class? Something you can’t miss?

 

What if, it’s a class where I need to hand up important works?

Sureee it might take half a day, but going back, I have to wait for the other students to be done, that means I only reach SS2 at 1pm, earliest.

 

I need to get to Asia Jaya, then wait for a bus to go coll. That would take an hour, earliest. So I’d be back in coll by 2 - 3, right?

 

Miss full day class lo, if Mondays are full days la.

Then let’s assume I fail… AGAIN.

 

Prob wait for another 1 month or so, and that’s when coll work piles up. Then I miss class(es) twice adi. Get warning letter lo (3 miss classes = fail sub).

 

I waited until today to take it cause it’s sem break, no classes to miss. But now, wasted. Just cause in the end, I did a very small mistake. VERY small. But it still counts, what to do.

 

So….

 

It’s not funny. Thanks.

:/

Ugh

I’m going to be blunt here. This is going to be an emo post so if you’re not in the mood for this, just stop reading.

I’m also not in the mood for advice. I KNOW what’s my problem and I KNOW how to handle it. I just want to vent out..

So today I went out with my friends to do some project stuff. Was in Summit, my 1st time there in a super duper long time, and I had my eye set on these shoes that were on 70% discount. It’s a simple shoe, and after discount was for RM18. So I thought hey, worth it, so I bought it.

Taking the bus to someplace else, I sat right at the back. I left my shoes on the floor. And I guess you’d know what happened next…

I forgot to take them down with me.

First of all, I’m pissed cuz I actually don’t have much cash on me, and was not supposed to spend money but I did. So yeah, I spent cash and got nothing in return.

Secondly, I had someone who rubbed into my face about this and certain stuff. It was annoying and it secretly hurt me more than ever.

Thirdly, I’m fucking pissed at myself for being so stupid. Not only stupid with this, but the whole week.

And so, I’m mainly pissed at myself.

See, on Monday many people didn’t bring the materials needed for a class (myself included). We got a mini lecture from my lecturer which of course, were wise words. I blame myself, cuz I know and understand what he said, and yet I was too lazy to have made sure I got the materials.

Thursday, I didn’t get to finish my home assignment, and was one of the few responsible for making the lecturer lectured the class. It really stung my pride and all. I know her words were blunt for a reason, but it frigging hurts. I was having an internal argument the entire of the class period, so bad till I did my work half heartedly..

Voice 1 : You know, I didn’t get to finish it last night cuz I was sick!

Voice 2 : But if you’d waken earlier, you could’ve finish it. But nooo, you just HAD to ignore your alarm. So much for discipline.

Voice 1 : But I still wasn’t feeling well! I can’t be blame.

Voice 2 : Bullshit. You took the pills this morning when you still felt ill and now look, you’re fine.

Voice 3 : Can’t blame her! You know what’d happen if she’d not rested last night! She should tell the lecturer she was sick!

Voice 2 : And what, get another lecture? For being irresponsible and immature? She could’ve instead finished it another day! She’d prob get a ‘serve you right’for doing it last minute.

Voice 1 : But I was sick..

Voice 3 : Like, shut the effing hell up. You’re simply making excuses for your weakness. Just put on your fucking thick face like you know you should and SHUT UP!

But I eventually brushed it away. And that night, I made the stupid childish mistake again. I knew if I were to sleep, I will end up sleeping an extra hour. But I thought if I set my alarm earlier, I’d wake up in time. So I slept… And woke up 3 hours late.

I was so furious with myself. Here I go again, rushing my assignments. I made the same mistake again. Its like, when will I ever learn?!?!?! I know myself, and yet I repeat the same mistake. And today this happens. Is this God’s way of teaching me a lesson? That I should really stop making bad decisions?

I’m simply pissed at myself. Just super pissed. And downright disappointed.

I know I need to move on, but I just want to cry.

Like, wtf is wrong with me??

So what if you’re tired and sick, everyone is feeling the same!

Just shut the fuck up Maddie and move on.

Drama :)

I left my blog dead for appx 27 days. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not THAT busy but I’d a lot going on. Eheh.

I’ve adjusted to coll well so far, so I’m not worried. But I heard starting from the 5th week (which is next week!) it’d get tougher. Oh well, if life gives you candy, get cavity eh? As in, just work hard for it xD

*lameness*

CNY was kinda quiet this year. I didn’t get to see many relatives. And horror of all horror, I had my menstrual cramps on the 1st day of CNY! Thank God my friends were understanding :/

I’ve had lotsa drama going on lately. You people would think its nonsense, and I guess it is?

Family drama.

Guy(s) drama(s).

Ptfff.

This, of course, leads me to typing about my dramas x)

Family drama has been getting worst. Well, not as bad as last time but I’m kinda losing my patience. It’s really getting me down and tbh, the solution to the problem is very complex.

As for the guy(s) drama(s). I’ve two major ones. Yay, you’ll expect exciting stuff right? Like how I commit affair with a married man, bla bla, or a typical triangle or just puppy love. Hahahaha sorry la but it ain’t that. Its;

1) Guy A has been stalking my chats with my best friend. He’s anonymous and oh, did I mention he admires me? Well I think it’s admired now, but I don’t care. Did I also mention he wants to sabotage my friend? Lovely ain’t it?

2) Guy B.. Have been liking him for 2 years, had lots of ups and downs with him (mostly downs…sry dude!). I guess its considered a cat and dog situation? Lotsa chasing but no results.

So what have I done to improve my drama?

I’ve finally taken the first step of trying to resolve my family probs.. So far so good :)

Stalker? He finally terminated all attempts to stalk my friend and I for a certain reason. He’s GONE, my privacy’s back! But I’ve a feeling he’ll be back..

Guy B? Finally, I got the ultimate answer. I hate being blunt but I couldn’t stand it anymore (sorry! I didn’t mean to :( ). So yea finally, its over. 2 years. Over. I don’t feel glad tho. I guess I knew it’d end like how I’d expected it.. But hey, still enjoyed the Ups we had :)

So now I have 1 main drama to focus on. And pray, I really really hope it stays that way!

Hahahaha!

I woke up with an empty feeling in my tummy. I thought it perfect, because it felt right and it was all I'd ever wanted. It feels as if I've lost a great opportunity in life. Now, I can't help but expect to wake up with your msg on my phone. But I'd to stop myself and remind myself its over. Things feel blank...

But maybe its cuz I’m hungwee :3

Look! 11-01-11!

Since I’m considered a coll kid *boblikestoremindmecoughcough* so I’ll just blog about coll so far :)

I was pretty excited about the orientation so yeah, tho it was long, I enjoyed it :D I’ll summarise about it kay.

1st day : Briefings on how to use the student site, library, lab bookings. Eric Leong briefed us about interior design, he joked lots. We formed our group for the following day’s group activity.

Dunno Eric Leong? Tengok ni; http://www.facebook.com/people/Eric-Leong/781847883#!/profile.php?id=781847883

The dude likes his pricey ice cream btw :D

2nd day : We went Sunway Lagoon!!!! Best kannnn? Kinda. We were given 4 photos, and we’ve to find the location based on the photo to get our tasks. Tasks finished, we’re handed words which we’ve to join in the end of the course. My group decided to look for the task slips before heading off to the task. The tasks included frog jumps, a ride on Grand Canyon and a slide, AND my favourite *notreally*, the suspension bridge. But since it rained, that section was closed so we had to ride on the Tomohawk! Its that ship thingy that turns 360 degrees.. Awesome la x)

3rd day : Briefing on deadlines, penalties, etc. And a speech *or lesson, as he proposed it was* from our principal. Got our materials and student ID too!

So yesterday was the first day of classes. I had History of Art *gasps!* and Finished Art. History ain’t that bad, we’ll be learning more on Western stuff for now (Y). Greek history next week, can’t wait! Finished art is like your..err.. pop up art and packaging stuff. Its ok, tedious tho with all the measurements -.-‘

Today I had computer graphics design only. My lecturer taught us the basic tools in Illustrator and we played around with polygons. Wheee! So fun :D We were also handed our assignment briefing and well, it LOOKS awesome :)

Hung out with new friends today too. Watched Paranormal Activity 2, had lunch, played pool and bowling. Haha! They’re really nice people, but I miss my old ones :3

I guess I should stop now. Gotta play with me bunnies then try and finish HP6 *dumbledoregonnadiefishfishfishfish!* and sleep. Gotta wake up early to teman a new friend to coll. Hehehe. She reminds me of someone too! Just can’t figure out who…

Lookalikes everywhere! Aieee! :P

2010+1

14 hours and 2010 will end.

Noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!

Tbh, I’m kinda sad yet glad its over :)

* There goes my final year at school, imma gonna miss my friends! :O
* No more scouts and other clubs! Aaaw damnn :(
* Free days are now over! Aiee!

But

* SPM is overrrr!! Wheeeeeeee!
* A new chapter awaits in 2011. So excited!
* I’ve made valuable friends! :D
* I’m leaving the old drama behind for good! Ptf, take that you b&%*^!

:)

And well, I’ve made my resolutions already. Staying at home with nothing but Harry Potter to entertain me made me excited for this. Eeeeeeeee :)

1) Just enjoy every moment I can get *cliché I know!*
2) I MUST and NEED to still hang out with my friends! Gawd I still need you guys :D
3) Work hard in college cause damn, I need to stop procrastinating :O
4) Smile more, less emo+pms = less botox + suicidal attempts :P
5) Less drama with boys please! I don’t want wtv I had in 2010 to repeat itself, they ain’t worth it >:)
6) I needa be more adventurous! Unleash my wild side (Y)!
7) Don’t ever ever, ever change myself just to please people, cuz heck, I’m unique! *cheh perasan* :P
8) I need to start working out soon :/
9) Dei, cepat get a new hp and a laptop! A phone that dies and butt ache ain’t nice x)

10) I wanna dye my hair a shade of purple, blonde or red :D:D:D:D
11) Imma gonna appreciate EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YA, NO MATTER WHAT! Heeeeeee!

2011! I’ve a good feeling about you ;)

M.I.S.S. U

Life’s been quiet nowadays, what’s with prom done and I’m waiting for my ‘L’. Bob’s in Singapore, Imp backpacking in Australia, and Ee in Johor/ Sg so yeah, life’s kinda lonely.

On the plus side, I know I should be skipping with joy now that I’m about to start college! I should be ecstatic my New Year’s shopping will be done soon! I should be excited I’m gonna have my virgin ears pierced (finally)!

Well, I am. But its not over the top joy :/

I hate to say it so soon, but I miss my friends! :O

Yes, I have other friends but these 3 are like, my bros and sis. I need someone to talk to, to laugh with, to just be there..

Especially since emotionally, I’m not doing fine.

I owe all of these nonsense to my PMSing tho -.-‘

But yeah, I just miss them :(

Come back soon! :’(

Someone stop me!! :O

You know, I expected my holiday to be filled with relaxation. Lazing around, eating lots, sleeping, hanging out with friends.. The usual stuff, no?

I didn’t expect to :

* fall sick
* be given a task I thought people forgot about
* run around trying to accomplish it while feeling sick
* volunteer to help someone out
* end up exhausted from the work load given

But hey, lookie the bright side… I’m cured of my food poisoning! :D:D

I’ve been busy with prom stuff mostly. I volunteered to help with door gifts, and well, there were certain problems with it.. Ohhhhh, I just got an sms from Jiunn Jie. Hallelujah, I’m saved! Ok so lets skip this part, problem solved :)

I heard this girl needed help with deco, so kinda pitying her I volunteered my help. She needed help with the stage deco, and tho it may not look tiresome...it really is. Had to check out the hall, discuss and plan stuff, and of course, perform the plan. Tho I don’t really mind, but having to open my house doors to be the workplace is a drag. Especially for my bro, cause he wants to practice and its kinda disturbing him :/

I’ve started my driving classes too. The lecture was….boring. I went with Bob, Ee couldn’t make it and he was given wrong info from the clerk. Me, forgetting the rule, wore slippers which I had to pay RM10 for. Wtf??? We met a new friend tho, Marian. She’s cool :D But she spotted a few girls in slippers too who weren’t stopped by the workers… $&#$^#@$)!

On a lighter note, I’ve finally received my offer letter from

:P:P:P:D:D:D

Orientation day is on the 5th. Can’t wait wehhhh :)

Overall, I’m quite worried about my schedule. I know college would be hectic, and I should appreciate my free time now. But so far,

* 1 week is gone.
* I’d not a single work free day
* My schedule is planned for next week
* Which leaves me with the final week before OD free

I’m scared I won’t be free then too. I wish I am tho… I really wanna slow down and smell the flowers! Sadly most of my friends won’t be around during that time. I really missed out a lot, didn’t I?

I’m still grateful to have spent time with people tho busy. Ishaq, Wendy, Sofiah, Ee Leng, Jun Ren and of course, BOB! I owe him a great deal, he’s a true friend to me :3

Sayonara! I need to enjoy my 30 mins of freedom before I start work on deco stuff again. Hagrid is teaching about Blasted End Skewts, and I wouldn’t want to miss out on Harry’s first Defence Against the Dark Arts class with Moody!

:P

Red Riding Hood.. My version :D

Before I begin, I wanna say sorry for changing the storyline of Red Riding Hood.. So instead, my character is named Blue Riding Hood! :D

Blue Riding Hood went to visit grandpa.
On the way she met a pig.
Piggy asked, 'Where are you going, Blue Riding Hood?'
She said 'Oh, to visit grandpa of course! But dear me, I seem to have forgotten to bring his meal along... I suppose I will have to find berries along the way!'
The pig, now in a thoughtful trance, rushed to grandpa's house.
He sneaked into the kitchen, brought up the big pot and filled it with water from the well.
He boiled the water, added in turnips,carrots, salt, garlic and rosemary,
obviously getting ready for a feast.
When Blue Riding Hood finally arrived, he quickly dressed up as grandpa.
'Come in Blue Riding Hood, grandpa can't see you with his poor vision, come closer! I'm in the kitchen'.
She went into the kitchen and got a shock.
'Grandpa! Your tummy! It looks bloated, what has happened??'
'Grandpa has a bad case of indigestion my dear, could you please cook up this broth for me as my remedy?'
'But grandpa, there are only vegetables in here. Where's the meat stock?'
Piggy revealed himself and said, 'Here it is,' and threw himself into the pot.

The end.

Alvin asked me for a bedtime story, so I conjured this up for fun. Hehehehe. I was too lazy to blog about something else, so yeah :)

Sorry its not halal too!

Stress?

I dunno if it’s stress induced or whatever, but..

Like Bob said, I’m a different Maddie in school and at home.

Its so complicated yet simple, I wanna laugh wei.

There’s a long story to it, and a short chapter to explain this.

Its one of those situations where death seems like an easier way out, but I wanna live through it ‘cause its not worth my life.

You try to find a way around it, but its impossible yet possible.

Sometimes it’s worst, sometimes better.

But then when you think its finally getting better, it turns upside down.

You try to fix things, but it ends up falling apart even before you’ve started.

Life gives you false hopes sometimes and you hate it but.. You just can’t help but hope for the better.

Even if it hurts you badly..


I wanna be the real me, why can’t I?

I wanna show the true me, but I can’t ‘cause without the barrier, I’d be lost.

……

Do you understand what I’ve typed so far?

Nope.

I don’t expect you to.

I’m just…sorely tired.

More drawings :)

So I’ve finally finished it.

2 weeks :)

Plus all my procrastination.. Hehe.

Actually it took me only 3 days (I think?)

But hey, I’m finally done with my college requirements thingy.

I’m way proud of this than my portrait drawing, which is obvious I screwed it up. Oh well.

;D

Still-life drawing, here I come!

Baby smiles!

I decided to blog ‘cause.. I want to?

:)

People handle their SPM stress by studying 24/7, pulling their hair, snapping at people. And tho I’ve finally joined them (minus the 4 and 7 in 24/7, and the latter), I guess my stress took in the strangest form ever.

I’ve been having dreams.

No, not me failing SPM dreams.

Not dreams of me getting murdered by my parents either.

I dreamt…. Of my CHILDREN.

WTH.

I believe I’ve 2 daughters, or a daughter and son..

2 nights ago, I dreamt of my teenage daughter, we were hugging ‘cause of some horrific incident.

Hella horrific wei, imagine a haunted house with a girl haunting you over and over.

Then last night, I dreamt of a baby guy/girl with thick short loose curls. And best part is, it’s a good baby, rarely cries and smiles like an angel.

:D

I dunno la. Weird.

I’ve been thinking, all these weird dreams, do they really mean something?

Or is it normal for ‘creative’ people to dream such dreams?

You Are Wild

You're so outrageous it's intoxicating. You definitely live big. You are unpredictable and kooky. You love to take risks and use your imagination. You're a complex person with many layers. No one can figure you out... including yourself. You live a chaotic, colorful life, but there is also some structure to it. There's a method to your madness!

And since I want 3 children… I’ve a feeling tonight will be my 3rd child.

Gasp!

Oh, happy day!

What if…

You cut yourself accidentally.

You missed your favourite episode of Desperate Housewives.

You found out you have cancer.

You had to give up your entire life support to live a memorable moment?

Cliché much? I know :D

Remember that scene in The Curious Case of Benjamin Button, where he remarked about the ‘Ifs’? The ‘what if :the taxi driver had not stopped for coffee/the girl had not broken up with her bf/the lady had gotten into the taxi earlier’ scene? How if any one of it had turned otherwise, the girl would’ve not been hit by the taxi? *I know,tragic eh? Goes to show taxi drivers are scary!*

Thinking about life, I have always wondered how things would’ve turned out if the decisions I made were completely different.

One of it was; what if I hadn’t moved to Samad? What if I had remained in Taman SEA?

I would have met different friends, gained different knowledge, joined different clubs, and most of all, grew differently from what I am now. Would I have achieved great things there? Would I have met better people there? Would I still pursue my current dreams, if I remained there?

Would I be a better person?

Honestly, I don’t really care. I’m grateful for being in Samad. Full stop.

After all, when life gives lemon, make lemonade right?

My point is,

If I had not not noticed my grandpa earlier in school.

If the annoying office people hadn’t crowd in front of the fruit stall.

If any one of my food orders were late.

If the traffic lights had been a few seconds late.

If any one of these had not or had been late/earlier to happen.

…………

I wouldn’t have had a glimpse of him.

:)

Grateful like MAD! ;D

You Should Have Two Kids

You can definitely manage a small family, and having kids is one of your major goals.

That being said, having kids is not all you want to do. Two is a perfect number for you!

You want to make sure your children have the best upbringing possible, but you still want to live a balanced life.

Having two kids will leave you just enough time and money to do the things you want to do for yourself and your family.

How Many Kids Should You Have?

YAP EE LENG! You should be taking this test. And Bob too.

:D

Sosososososo.. I got a few unexpected results for trials.

A : Eng, Art, Moral
A- : BM (wheeeeeeeee)
D : Bio, Sej (double wheeeeeeee!)
FAIL!!!! : Mod maths (expected)

I expected the fail, but 3As and A- for BM? Kewwwwl. I even passed those two subs. Hahahahahahahahhahahaha.

Thank you Pn Fadzilah and Pn Bong! Tqtqtqtqtqtqtq! :D

I’ll seriously study to get decent marks for your subs! :3

Mod maths and physics a diff matter…. LOL! Ok la, I’ll get a C for it k? It’d seriously be really high considering my abilities.. :X

You know, I never actually gave much thought why I started to enjoy Korean music. I was anti-ing it at first. OMG. Am I down with Korean fever?!??!?!

Gasp!

Gasp!

Gasp!

..
...
....
.....

No.

I enjoy songs with a good beat AND have meaningful lyrics. Somehow I find Korean music has a unique tone to it. I even tried watching a Korean drama.

It was too drama for me.

Girl cry, guy cry, side girl and guy cry. Sister cry. Mum cry. Everyone cry. And a happy ending. Coffee Prince is fantastic but its just too much drama. But its NICE! Don’t get me wrong ;P

I doubt I wanna end up like Krystle – sorry gurl! But so far I don’t like any Korean dudes, nor find any that’s… Er… Man enough? X]

Lee Seung Gi looks ok tho. Don’t slaughter me! :O

But but…

Tae Yang! He’s got 6 packs you know, and he’s a *somewhat* shy and *man* guy :D I like guys like these :P:P
FYL, that doesn’t mean I’m obsessed like you…

Kim Jong Wook! I know, so doesn’t suit me. But I dunno, I like his style? I’m still a girl you know :X
And and and, his song, Only You, really stole my heart.

Ah! Listen to it please!

Only you can make me smile.
Only you can wrap me in your arms.
Only you, only you shine brighter than a jewel.
You're brighter than a sunshine
Your mind is wider than a sea.

Only you, only you make me live
I passed by the farthest stars to meet you.
I must have come too far

I want to love you as one, just like that warm sunset.
Give me your heart that never dies.
Even if I gave you my poor love,
You gave me even more love
Only you, only you can give me happiness
Your eyes are twinkling just like a star
Your lips, your two hands, you don't have any place to hate.
We're starting to become alike, it must be happiness.

Such sweet lyrics… If my bf can sing that to me, I’ll elope with him to Hawaii and get married at the beach in a bikini with a sunset background behind us :D:D:D:D

Kim Jong Wook! Kimg Jong Wook! x3

Tae Yang! Tae Yang! x3

But really, I’m not obsessed.

Life at its best =)

Wow, my blogging mood is high today. It’s a miracle =D

Not really. I’m just trying to burn off my 10 minutes before True Blood starts. Hehehe.

So, I made a remarkable discovery today.

Did you know Earth has 365 days?

Each week has 7 days.

A minute has 60 seconds?

1 second just passed.

And did you know, its now October.

Which means = SPM is 7 weeks away.

Deng deng denggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg!

Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha! Seriously, I didn’t realize it. I’m really such a pitiful SPM candidate x]

Pitiful as in I suck like mad.

No studying, no stress, just enjoying life to its fullest. I mean, why give yourself an opportunity to look old with your wrinkles and white hair? Just be cool and don’t worry to much, right?

I spent the whole day in school chatting with friends, teasing each other, gossiping, the usual stuff.

And that, is the best part of it all.

=)

Ideas pop out of nowhere!

I’m gonna be random here, so bear with me!

Nowadays I’ve been getting interesting ideas for a manga. Weird that such things happen during exams..

This is the recent one, and the only one I can remember so far. Fun fact : Thought about it when I was showering :D

So imagine you died, and you’re walking towards the light that leads to reincarnation. However, you saw this other path and walked towards it. You wake up with wires connected around you. Turns out the earth is undergoing a ‘healing’ process and humans are preserved in pods until the earth is healed. The human mind is kept alive with them living in a virtual world like the current one we’re living in. And each day in the ‘world’ is merely 10 seconds in the real one, so each soul undergoes reincarnation multiple times. So the 'world' begins to evolve, the humans thinking they can do it all over again, save their 'world' from destruction.. But can they?

© MaddieTSL

Just so ya know, I want this storyline to be mine x]

And this is the idea you get from playing a game like .hack//GU :P

My essay for English paper is worst. I guess you can say, its waaaaay off topic (in a way). Hope teacher is open minded tho.

What? You give me a word ‘Fire’ and expect me to write an essay. You think I’ll want to tell you it needs O2 and releases CO2, or that it causes destruction or it reacts to fart and other obvious details?? Wait till I get my paper back, then I’ll post it here :D

Weirdly enough, I feel melancholic. Banyak people coupling, I tengok pun jealous…

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Don’t believe me? Phineeeeeee~

FYI! I’m even jealous of my bunnies, who stick so close together and nampak so loving, and they’re both GIRLS!

ILY Bunny, take care :')

Yesterday, watching Marley and Me left me feeling loving. I snuggled her in my arms, eventho she was lying by her side, unable to stand up like when she used to. I didn’t care. I still love her. I fed her with bits of veg, stroking her, tickling her chin. I smiled when she licked me, now a rarity eversince she came back from the clinic. I kissed her saying ‘I love you..’. And I left to do my own things like normal.

And then, she’s gone.

GONE.

My rabbit… My Bunny… She’s gone..

Why didn’t I wake up earlier? Why didn’t I check up on her more last night? Why did I effing miss the chance?

Now she’s gone.

And I’m crying… I want her back. Please?

Grandma woke me up, told me Bunny made a weird noise. I grumbled as she does this sometimes. When I touched Bunny, an intense shock went through my body. Her body was stiff. She didn’t respond. I checked for a pulse and…

Nothing.

OMG… I don’t believe it!

I kept touching her, thinking she’d raise her head and greet me like she always did. Wishing that I’d see her chest rise and fall, indicating breathing. Nothing.

Walking towards my room, my mind was blank. Shocked. And when I passed my bro, then only thing I thought necessary to say was; Bunny is dead.

Then I cried.

Was it because of me? She was fine before I had to admit her in the clinic. She couldn’t eat, drink or act normally. But doctor said she’s fine, its just the diet problem. When I brought her back, she couldn’t even stand. I cried silently looking at her.

But her health gradually became better. She ate more, she could stand a lil better. Overall getting better..

So why did you have to leave so sudden?

Grandma said she emitted a loud cry before I came down. Did she suffer before passing?

Did she have a good life being my pet?

I’m so sorry Bunny… I’m so sorry…

Please forgive me..

I’ll always love you, no matter what.

These tears? It can’t stop when I think about you. Or when I look at your photos. Nor when we buried you.

Doctors said you’ve lived a long life, 8 years is long for a rabbit. I hoped you do not regret being with me..

Rest In Peace my friend..

Bunny : 8.2002 – 16.9.2010

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These were taken yesterday… You can see how sickly she looked like..

And this is exactly the pose she had on when I found her this morning..

The future for the moment, seems bleak

Here I am, sipping orange juice while thinking of what to blog about.

But since I know what I’m gonna type, what the heck =D

I’ve been doing lots of thinking lately, mostly focused on my future;

College.

Screw trials I say! Nothing seems to motivate me more to live through SPM except entering the One Academy x]

I have not studied for real, unlike my fellow Form 5 counterparts who, at least, are super duper worried about it.

I guess I’ll finally crack when the time comes eh? For now, I’ll just remain at this pace =)

So, college… I’ve been asking Cheryl lately about it, and being my usual worried self, I asked her loads of questions. Most concerning questions of all, the most glorious and intriguing but deadly (yes deadly!! >=D ) question of all is……

*drums roll*

*rolling*

* rolling*

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January or March?

AHAH. Potong stim. AHAH. *lame*

I’m referring to the intake of course.

Now being my over-indulging self, I would of course want to take January as I really can’t wait to learn more about my one and only talent. Starting early too gives me advantage to complete my studies sooner.

On the other hand, I only have 3 weeks rest before starting college if I choose Jan. And if I wanna work, March is the best pick.

I’m really worried tho. I’ve heard from Cheryl that people drop out cuz:

1) They can’t take the stress.

2) They find out art isn’t what they want.

I’m really scared outta my skin!

*Bless my skin,fyi! Without it I’d be the skeleton you see hanging on a rod in your Bio lab!*

These questions have been pounding on my head recently…

I’m an avid procrastinator. And I prefer doing stuff according to my mood. With the amount of assignments and obligations they have, can I cope with the work given? And if I can, will I do a good one at that?

What if I DO find out that particular field isn’t my thing? I’ll be lost!

Also, will I give up if I find out there are people way superior than me, and my progress seems weak besides their’s?

I’m bloody hell scared.

YIKES!

But then again, I should focus on trials first..

And based on my post’s title? Yea, I’m somewhat doomed in trials. Probably getting only an A for Eng, and a mere pass for others (if I’m lucky)!

Oishhhh, headache betul. But for now, I’m hungry! Maggi, here I comeeeeeeeeeeee~~! Wheeeeeeeee!

Thanks to all who have nagged me to update my very lonely sesat blog! Without ya guys, it’d be super dead. Hehehe!

Kiwi!

Going, going.... Gone

Sooooooo… I’ve finished packing already.

Note that I can actually fit all my junk into the smaller bag, and the big luggage is meant for all my bro’s junk… Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

I’ve given my dog a good scrub before leaving.

I’ve given my bunny a good scrub before leaving.

I’ve put on my 80% cotton jacket which I hope its enough.

And….. I’M SO GODDAMN NOT READY.

I dunno why but I don’t feel much excitement towards this trip. Weird eh? A once in a lifetime trip and I don’t feel anything. N.O.T.H.I.N.G.

Maybe its cuz I didn’t managed to submit my entry for the One Academy scholarship contest… T.T

Maybe cuz I’ve not done my art project…

Maybe cuz I’ll miss my net, friends, bunny, doggie, grandparents…

Maybe cuz I takut kena robbed, hypothermia( its 12C there and its summer! Wth!??!?!?! ) and the plane might crash ( choi choi choi! ) and wow, I’ve 4 flights to take… Eeeeeek. Time to pray =/

Oh well…

I just wanna say, I love y’all and I wish y’all the best and erm… Pray for me kay? =D

Love you guys!

CY kor, take note! I’m off to Russia now!

Ciao!

Oh, and this happened dinner last night. Nothing much, but I really geli hati when it happened..

Dad : Eh, today ah I saw someone wearing sunglasses you know. I thought who was it ah??

Uncle : Yalah, I also saw. I didn’t even recognize who is that.

Dad : And then she took off her sunglasses… WAH! Turned out to be Leng! Summore slide the glasses onto her head, like so cool.

Hahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahaha by everyone except me.

Dad : Good la. Her mother was worried you know. She was telling me last week she was worried you would be a tomboy. She always wear those pants and after scout meetings she act like guy with T-shirt and all. But then I say, see now wear nail polish, wear dress, put make up, now she’s a girl la.

Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha by everyone except me.

Mum : Neeeeeeeeh, she last time used to wear dress ma. Then suddenly Aunty Li Li asked ‘Why you don’t wear pants??’ then suddenly stop wearing dress and wear pants.

Aunt : Yala, I was damn worried you know. Last time we went out with her we saw her in, what’s that you call it? Cargo pants. And T-shirts. I said to Ah Teoh (my uncle); Wah, this is a guy man!

Hahahahaha……..

So this was what my parents talk about behind my back la????

And this is what my family talk about infront of me la????

……….