Oh, happy day!

What if…

You cut yourself accidentally.

You missed your favourite episode of Desperate Housewives.

You found out you have cancer.

You had to give up your entire life support to live a memorable moment?

Cliché much? I know :D

Remember that scene in The Curious Case of Benjamin Button, where he remarked about the ‘Ifs’? The ‘what if :the taxi driver had not stopped for coffee/the girl had not broken up with her bf/the lady had gotten into the taxi earlier’ scene? How if any one of it had turned otherwise, the girl would’ve not been hit by the taxi? *I know,tragic eh? Goes to show taxi drivers are scary!*

Thinking about life, I have always wondered how things would’ve turned out if the decisions I made were completely different.

One of it was; what if I hadn’t moved to Samad? What if I had remained in Taman SEA?

I would have met different friends, gained different knowledge, joined different clubs, and most of all, grew differently from what I am now. Would I have achieved great things there? Would I have met better people there? Would I still pursue my current dreams, if I remained there?

Would I be a better person?

Honestly, I don’t really care. I’m grateful for being in Samad. Full stop.

After all, when life gives lemon, make lemonade right?

My point is,

If I had not not noticed my grandpa earlier in school.

If the annoying office people hadn’t crowd in front of the fruit stall.

If any one of my food orders were late.

If the traffic lights had been a few seconds late.

If any one of these had not or had been late/earlier to happen.

…………

I wouldn’t have had a glimpse of him.

:)

Grateful like MAD! ;D

You Should Have Two Kids

You can definitely manage a small family, and having kids is one of your major goals.

That being said, having kids is not all you want to do. Two is a perfect number for you!

You want to make sure your children have the best upbringing possible, but you still want to live a balanced life.

Having two kids will leave you just enough time and money to do the things you want to do for yourself and your family.

How Many Kids Should You Have?

YAP EE LENG! You should be taking this test. And Bob too.

:D

Sosososososo.. I got a few unexpected results for trials.

A : Eng, Art, Moral
A- : BM (wheeeeeeeee)
D : Bio, Sej (double wheeeeeeee!)
FAIL!!!! : Mod maths (expected)

I expected the fail, but 3As and A- for BM? Kewwwwl. I even passed those two subs. Hahahahahahahahhahahaha.

Thank you Pn Fadzilah and Pn Bong! Tqtqtqtqtqtqtq! :D

I’ll seriously study to get decent marks for your subs! :3

Mod maths and physics a diff matter…. LOL! Ok la, I’ll get a C for it k? It’d seriously be really high considering my abilities.. :X

You know, I never actually gave much thought why I started to enjoy Korean music. I was anti-ing it at first. OMG. Am I down with Korean fever?!??!?!

Gasp!

Gasp!

Gasp!

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No.

I enjoy songs with a good beat AND have meaningful lyrics. Somehow I find Korean music has a unique tone to it. I even tried watching a Korean drama.

It was too drama for me.

Girl cry, guy cry, side girl and guy cry. Sister cry. Mum cry. Everyone cry. And a happy ending. Coffee Prince is fantastic but its just too much drama. But its NICE! Don’t get me wrong ;P

I doubt I wanna end up like Krystle – sorry gurl! But so far I don’t like any Korean dudes, nor find any that’s… Er… Man enough? X]

Lee Seung Gi looks ok tho. Don’t slaughter me! :O

But but…

Tae Yang! He’s got 6 packs you know, and he’s a *somewhat* shy and *man* guy :D I like guys like these :P:P
FYL, that doesn’t mean I’m obsessed like you…

Kim Jong Wook! I know, so doesn’t suit me. But I dunno, I like his style? I’m still a girl you know :X
And and and, his song, Only You, really stole my heart.

Ah! Listen to it please!

Only you can make me smile.
Only you can wrap me in your arms.
Only you, only you shine brighter than a jewel.
You're brighter than a sunshine
Your mind is wider than a sea.

Only you, only you make me live
I passed by the farthest stars to meet you.
I must have come too far

I want to love you as one, just like that warm sunset.
Give me your heart that never dies.
Even if I gave you my poor love,
You gave me even more love
Only you, only you can give me happiness
Your eyes are twinkling just like a star
Your lips, your two hands, you don't have any place to hate.
We're starting to become alike, it must be happiness.

Such sweet lyrics… If my bf can sing that to me, I’ll elope with him to Hawaii and get married at the beach in a bikini with a sunset background behind us :D:D:D:D

Kim Jong Wook! Kimg Jong Wook! x3

Tae Yang! Tae Yang! x3

But really, I’m not obsessed.

Life at its best =)

Wow, my blogging mood is high today. It’s a miracle =D

Not really. I’m just trying to burn off my 10 minutes before True Blood starts. Hehehe.

So, I made a remarkable discovery today.

Did you know Earth has 365 days?

Each week has 7 days.

A minute has 60 seconds?

1 second just passed.

And did you know, its now October.

Which means = SPM is 7 weeks away.

Deng deng denggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg!

Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha! Seriously, I didn’t realize it. I’m really such a pitiful SPM candidate x]

Pitiful as in I suck like mad.

No studying, no stress, just enjoying life to its fullest. I mean, why give yourself an opportunity to look old with your wrinkles and white hair? Just be cool and don’t worry to much, right?

I spent the whole day in school chatting with friends, teasing each other, gossiping, the usual stuff.

And that, is the best part of it all.

=)

Ideas pop out of nowhere!

I’m gonna be random here, so bear with me!

Nowadays I’ve been getting interesting ideas for a manga. Weird that such things happen during exams..

This is the recent one, and the only one I can remember so far. Fun fact : Thought about it when I was showering :D

So imagine you died, and you’re walking towards the light that leads to reincarnation. However, you saw this other path and walked towards it. You wake up with wires connected around you. Turns out the earth is undergoing a ‘healing’ process and humans are preserved in pods until the earth is healed. The human mind is kept alive with them living in a virtual world like the current one we’re living in. And each day in the ‘world’ is merely 10 seconds in the real one, so each soul undergoes reincarnation multiple times. So the 'world' begins to evolve, the humans thinking they can do it all over again, save their 'world' from destruction.. But can they?

© MaddieTSL

Just so ya know, I want this storyline to be mine x]

And this is the idea you get from playing a game like .hack//GU :P

My essay for English paper is worst. I guess you can say, its waaaaay off topic (in a way). Hope teacher is open minded tho.

What? You give me a word ‘Fire’ and expect me to write an essay. You think I’ll want to tell you it needs O2 and releases CO2, or that it causes destruction or it reacts to fart and other obvious details?? Wait till I get my paper back, then I’ll post it here :D

Weirdly enough, I feel melancholic. Banyak people coupling, I tengok pun jealous…

………….

Don’t believe me? Phineeeeeee~

FYI! I’m even jealous of my bunnies, who stick so close together and nampak so loving, and they’re both GIRLS!

ILY Bunny, take care :')

Yesterday, watching Marley and Me left me feeling loving. I snuggled her in my arms, eventho she was lying by her side, unable to stand up like when she used to. I didn’t care. I still love her. I fed her with bits of veg, stroking her, tickling her chin. I smiled when she licked me, now a rarity eversince she came back from the clinic. I kissed her saying ‘I love you..’. And I left to do my own things like normal.

And then, she’s gone.

GONE.

My rabbit… My Bunny… She’s gone..

Why didn’t I wake up earlier? Why didn’t I check up on her more last night? Why did I effing miss the chance?

Now she’s gone.

And I’m crying… I want her back. Please?

Grandma woke me up, told me Bunny made a weird noise. I grumbled as she does this sometimes. When I touched Bunny, an intense shock went through my body. Her body was stiff. She didn’t respond. I checked for a pulse and…

Nothing.

OMG… I don’t believe it!

I kept touching her, thinking she’d raise her head and greet me like she always did. Wishing that I’d see her chest rise and fall, indicating breathing. Nothing.

Walking towards my room, my mind was blank. Shocked. And when I passed my bro, then only thing I thought necessary to say was; Bunny is dead.

Then I cried.

Was it because of me? She was fine before I had to admit her in the clinic. She couldn’t eat, drink or act normally. But doctor said she’s fine, its just the diet problem. When I brought her back, she couldn’t even stand. I cried silently looking at her.

But her health gradually became better. She ate more, she could stand a lil better. Overall getting better..

So why did you have to leave so sudden?

Grandma said she emitted a loud cry before I came down. Did she suffer before passing?

Did she have a good life being my pet?

I’m so sorry Bunny… I’m so sorry…

Please forgive me..

I’ll always love you, no matter what.

These tears? It can’t stop when I think about you. Or when I look at your photos. Nor when we buried you.

Doctors said you’ve lived a long life, 8 years is long for a rabbit. I hoped you do not regret being with me..

Rest In Peace my friend..

Bunny : 8.2002 – 16.9.2010

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These were taken yesterday… You can see how sickly she looked like..

And this is exactly the pose she had on when I found her this morning..

The future for the moment, seems bleak

Here I am, sipping orange juice while thinking of what to blog about.

But since I know what I’m gonna type, what the heck =D

I’ve been doing lots of thinking lately, mostly focused on my future;

College.

Screw trials I say! Nothing seems to motivate me more to live through SPM except entering the One Academy x]

I have not studied for real, unlike my fellow Form 5 counterparts who, at least, are super duper worried about it.

I guess I’ll finally crack when the time comes eh? For now, I’ll just remain at this pace =)

So, college… I’ve been asking Cheryl lately about it, and being my usual worried self, I asked her loads of questions. Most concerning questions of all, the most glorious and intriguing but deadly (yes deadly!! >=D ) question of all is……

*drums roll*

*rolling*

* rolling*

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January or March?

AHAH. Potong stim. AHAH. *lame*

I’m referring to the intake of course.

Now being my over-indulging self, I would of course want to take January as I really can’t wait to learn more about my one and only talent. Starting early too gives me advantage to complete my studies sooner.

On the other hand, I only have 3 weeks rest before starting college if I choose Jan. And if I wanna work, March is the best pick.

I’m really worried tho. I’ve heard from Cheryl that people drop out cuz:

1) They can’t take the stress.

2) They find out art isn’t what they want.

I’m really scared outta my skin!

*Bless my skin,fyi! Without it I’d be the skeleton you see hanging on a rod in your Bio lab!*

These questions have been pounding on my head recently…

I’m an avid procrastinator. And I prefer doing stuff according to my mood. With the amount of assignments and obligations they have, can I cope with the work given? And if I can, will I do a good one at that?

What if I DO find out that particular field isn’t my thing? I’ll be lost!

Also, will I give up if I find out there are people way superior than me, and my progress seems weak besides their’s?

I’m bloody hell scared.

YIKES!

But then again, I should focus on trials first..

And based on my post’s title? Yea, I’m somewhat doomed in trials. Probably getting only an A for Eng, and a mere pass for others (if I’m lucky)!

Oishhhh, headache betul. But for now, I’m hungry! Maggi, here I comeeeeeeeeeeee~~! Wheeeeeeeee!

Thanks to all who have nagged me to update my very lonely sesat blog! Without ya guys, it’d be super dead. Hehehe!

Kiwi!