Stress?

I dunno if it’s stress induced or whatever, but..

Like Bob said, I’m a different Maddie in school and at home.

Its so complicated yet simple, I wanna laugh wei.

There’s a long story to it, and a short chapter to explain this.

Its one of those situations where death seems like an easier way out, but I wanna live through it ‘cause its not worth my life.

You try to find a way around it, but its impossible yet possible.

Sometimes it’s worst, sometimes better.

But then when you think its finally getting better, it turns upside down.

You try to fix things, but it ends up falling apart even before you’ve started.

Life gives you false hopes sometimes and you hate it but.. You just can’t help but hope for the better.

Even if it hurts you badly..


I wanna be the real me, why can’t I?

I wanna show the true me, but I can’t ‘cause without the barrier, I’d be lost.

……

Do you understand what I’ve typed so far?

Nope.

I don’t expect you to.

I’m just…sorely tired.

More drawings :)

So I’ve finally finished it.

2 weeks :)

Plus all my procrastination.. Hehe.

Actually it took me only 3 days (I think?)

But hey, I’m finally done with my college requirements thingy.

I’m way proud of this than my portrait drawing, which is obvious I screwed it up. Oh well.

;D

Still-life drawing, here I come!

Baby smiles!

I decided to blog ‘cause.. I want to?

:)

People handle their SPM stress by studying 24/7, pulling their hair, snapping at people. And tho I’ve finally joined them (minus the 4 and 7 in 24/7, and the latter), I guess my stress took in the strangest form ever.

I’ve been having dreams.

No, not me failing SPM dreams.

Not dreams of me getting murdered by my parents either.

I dreamt…. Of my CHILDREN.

WTH.

I believe I’ve 2 daughters, or a daughter and son..

2 nights ago, I dreamt of my teenage daughter, we were hugging ‘cause of some horrific incident.

Hella horrific wei, imagine a haunted house with a girl haunting you over and over.

Then last night, I dreamt of a baby guy/girl with thick short loose curls. And best part is, it’s a good baby, rarely cries and smiles like an angel.

:D

I dunno la. Weird.

I’ve been thinking, all these weird dreams, do they really mean something?

Or is it normal for ‘creative’ people to dream such dreams?

You Are Wild

You're so outrageous it's intoxicating. You definitely live big. You are unpredictable and kooky. You love to take risks and use your imagination. You're a complex person with many layers. No one can figure you out... including yourself. You live a chaotic, colorful life, but there is also some structure to it. There's a method to your madness!

And since I want 3 children… I’ve a feeling tonight will be my 3rd child.

Gasp!