ILY Bunny, take care :')

Yesterday, watching Marley and Me left me feeling loving. I snuggled her in my arms, eventho she was lying by her side, unable to stand up like when she used to. I didn’t care. I still love her. I fed her with bits of veg, stroking her, tickling her chin. I smiled when she licked me, now a rarity eversince she came back from the clinic. I kissed her saying ‘I love you..’. And I left to do my own things like normal.

And then, she’s gone.

GONE.

My rabbit… My Bunny… She’s gone..

Why didn’t I wake up earlier? Why didn’t I check up on her more last night? Why did I effing miss the chance?

Now she’s gone.

And I’m crying… I want her back. Please?

Grandma woke me up, told me Bunny made a weird noise. I grumbled as she does this sometimes. When I touched Bunny, an intense shock went through my body. Her body was stiff. She didn’t respond. I checked for a pulse and…

Nothing.

OMG… I don’t believe it!

I kept touching her, thinking she’d raise her head and greet me like she always did. Wishing that I’d see her chest rise and fall, indicating breathing. Nothing.

Walking towards my room, my mind was blank. Shocked. And when I passed my bro, then only thing I thought necessary to say was; Bunny is dead.

Then I cried.

Was it because of me? She was fine before I had to admit her in the clinic. She couldn’t eat, drink or act normally. But doctor said she’s fine, its just the diet problem. When I brought her back, she couldn’t even stand. I cried silently looking at her.

But her health gradually became better. She ate more, she could stand a lil better. Overall getting better..

So why did you have to leave so sudden?

Grandma said she emitted a loud cry before I came down. Did she suffer before passing?

Did she have a good life being my pet?

I’m so sorry Bunny… I’m so sorry…

Please forgive me..

I’ll always love you, no matter what.

These tears? It can’t stop when I think about you. Or when I look at your photos. Nor when we buried you.

Doctors said you’ve lived a long life, 8 years is long for a rabbit. I hoped you do not regret being with me..

Rest In Peace my friend..

Bunny : 8.2002 – 16.9.2010

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These were taken yesterday… You can see how sickly she looked like..

And this is exactly the pose she had on when I found her this morning..

The future for the moment, seems bleak

Here I am, sipping orange juice while thinking of what to blog about.

But since I know what I’m gonna type, what the heck =D

I’ve been doing lots of thinking lately, mostly focused on my future;

College.

Screw trials I say! Nothing seems to motivate me more to live through SPM except entering the One Academy x]

I have not studied for real, unlike my fellow Form 5 counterparts who, at least, are super duper worried about it.

I guess I’ll finally crack when the time comes eh? For now, I’ll just remain at this pace =)

So, college… I’ve been asking Cheryl lately about it, and being my usual worried self, I asked her loads of questions. Most concerning questions of all, the most glorious and intriguing but deadly (yes deadly!! >=D ) question of all is……

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January or March?

AHAH. Potong stim. AHAH. *lame*

I’m referring to the intake of course.

Now being my over-indulging self, I would of course want to take January as I really can’t wait to learn more about my one and only talent. Starting early too gives me advantage to complete my studies sooner.

On the other hand, I only have 3 weeks rest before starting college if I choose Jan. And if I wanna work, March is the best pick.

I’m really worried tho. I’ve heard from Cheryl that people drop out cuz:

1) They can’t take the stress.

2) They find out art isn’t what they want.

I’m really scared outta my skin!

*Bless my skin,fyi! Without it I’d be the skeleton you see hanging on a rod in your Bio lab!*

These questions have been pounding on my head recently…

I’m an avid procrastinator. And I prefer doing stuff according to my mood. With the amount of assignments and obligations they have, can I cope with the work given? And if I can, will I do a good one at that?

What if I DO find out that particular field isn’t my thing? I’ll be lost!

Also, will I give up if I find out there are people way superior than me, and my progress seems weak besides their’s?

I’m bloody hell scared.

YIKES!

But then again, I should focus on trials first..

And based on my post’s title? Yea, I’m somewhat doomed in trials. Probably getting only an A for Eng, and a mere pass for others (if I’m lucky)!

Oishhhh, headache betul. But for now, I’m hungry! Maggi, here I comeeeeeeeeeeee~~! Wheeeeeeeee!

Thanks to all who have nagged me to update my very lonely sesat blog! Without ya guys, it’d be super dead. Hehehe!